March 14, 2008

Dear Diary,
Remember Goldilocks? I had really liked him, but he ended things after deciding to “give it another go” with his ex. I had to see him the other day, because there was a bit more filming to do for that movie we were working on. I ask him how things are going with the girlfriend. “We tried, we sucked, we’re finished,” he says. Interesting. A couple of friendly emails back and forth between us the following week, and I think why not, I’ll give it another try. I asked him out the first time, why can’t I again? I write Goldilocks and ask if he’d like to hang out again “friendly or otherwise”. That was a week ago, he still hasn’t written back. Boo.

What is wrong with me? Last week The Boy missed our movie date, now Goldilocks won’t respond to my email. Do they sense my desperation for a boyfriend? I was in a crappy mood Friday night and got plastered with some good friends at The Madison. It’s past last call, we’re all sitting in a booth where the piano guy sings, and I see a cute guy. Seriously, within 10 minutes, we were making out. I say bye to my friends and follow him and his incredibly wasted buddy outside. I end up getting in a cab with them and going back to his place. Correction, to his parent’s place.

We go to his room, loose some clothes, and start making out. He was covered in tattoos, which is usually so not my thing, but it was kind of hot. If I was going to do something stupid, this was the guy to do it with. I actually didn’t plan on sleeping with him. I’d even gone off my birth control a couple of weeks ago, hoping that would stop me from doing something like this. It was good, I guess, but totally not worth it. This is not the way I’m going to get my boyfriend.

Back to the drawing board. The Boy just isn’t realistically a potential b/f… he’s almost 4 years younger than me, and at this point he’s been putting off our movie date for way too long (it’s now been THREE times that he’s let me down). Goldilocks isn’t replying to my try at a reconnect, plus I recently heard some dirt on him that tells me I should just move on. The Kindergarten Teacher finally explained why he was acting distant – his ex girlfriend wants to get back together and he’s “confused”. I told him that’s something I just can’t compete with. My best bet is Mr. Nice Guy, so last night I headed to the bar he works at again to try and see him.

I went with Blossom and K. for a late dinner and drinks. Thankfully this time he was there (yippee) and he looked even cuter than I remembered. As we ate I stared longingly at him from across the bar. After we finished I suggested we take our drinks up to the counter where he was working. He’s sooo nice and we sat there for a couple of hours talking to him. Blossom thinks Mr. Nice Guy likes me, but if so then why hasn’t he asked me out? That night (a few weeks ago) that he and I danced at Grace O’Malley’s it was obvious that I am into him, so I’m not sure what’s up. At least I’m taking it slow, and up until this point I’ve resisted my urge to be aggressive and just ask him out myself. I did mention that I was heading to Gracey’s again next weekend, and that he should come, so we’ll see.

Oh, and Diary, this is kind of crazy! Remember the singer I emailed after I saw his band play last weekend? Well Blossom was at Stone’s Place Friday night and ran into him. She went up and said she’d seen him play, and that her friend (me) was “in love with” him, and had messaged him on Facebook. Get this, he says “Oh ya, Little Miss X-Rated, right?” (OK, he actually said my real name, but still…he remembered!) And then, the next day he adds me on Facebook (I’d just messaged him on it last week, not actually added him). I know it’s not really anything big, and that nothing will ever happen, but their band is playing again soon and I’m definitely grabbing Blossom and Buttercup and checking it out. My girl’s are the best wingmen ever. That’s still a while away though, but hopefully Mr. Nice Guy will come out next week. Fingers crossed.